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Thank you so much for these resources. When I finally found a specialist who understood my spinal cord injury/congenital defects, he said he was willing to operate but that he needed a thoracic surgeon to assist, and ALL of them had strict weight limits and wouldn't work with him on a case like mine.

He also said that due to my age and severity, I would likely need revision surgeries every year or year and a half for the rest of my life. He agreed the BMI limit was BS but also said unless I lost weight, there was nothing he could do. I pointed out that long-term weight loss is impossible so even if I lost enough in the short term to get the surgery (which would be a miracle because I'm very superfat), I would almost certainly gain it back (and then some) while failing surgical hardware further disabled me and I couldn't have it repaired because I wasn't small enough. He mentioned that stupid balloon you can swallow to fill up my stomach and prevent me from eating too much. I said it was horse shit to assume that my size was due to my appetite and ended the visit.

I genuinely believe if I'd been able to access surgery when I was younger, healthier, and stronger, that I would've done really well and preserved all or almost all of my mobility.

I really truly hope this piece helps someone younger who is in my shoes.

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It's not certain that I'll need lumbar fusion surgery (I'm at the injection stage of the torture), but I was told by me orthopedic surgeon that he wouldn't be able to do the procedure because of my weight. I immediately began researching and discovered OLLIF, a new protocol for the kind of surgery I might need. The problem is access. So far, I can't find a surgeon in my city who is adept in this procedure.

All I know is that I can't function with the level of pain I've been experiencing for most of the past year. And it's only getting worse.

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